30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 6

Day 6: What Am I Afraid Of?

- I'm not really afraid of a lot. I mean not in the sense of being scared of spiders or heights. My fears are different.

- I'm afraid of being alone - truly alone. Never finding love or being with anyone. Of everyone I love abandoning me and/or hating me.

- I'm afraid of the people I love being hurt or killed or anything. I'm scared that they'll experience the sadness and the hurt that I do.

- I'm afraid of being alone in the general sense when I'm having a bad day, I never know what I'm capable of and never fully trust myself.

- I'm afraid of never getting over the guy I'm in love with - never being able to love anyone else because of how much he means to me and how much I love him.

- I'm absolutely fucking terrified that I'll be like this forever. I'm so so sooooo scared that I will try to fight this but that it will all be in vain, that I'll be a depressed mess for the rest of my life.

This is a photo quote I found a while ago regarding the fear of not being able to stop loving someone. It's so damn accurate, ughhh... and the more that time passes, the more I feel like these feelings are permanent...

As I work weekends, I won't be able to post as much. I will attempt to upload a proper blog post tomorrow. Please let me know if there's anything you want me to talk about.

Goodnight

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