The Urge To Scream

I find myself constantly annoyed by every little fucking thing - the bigger things like not being able to see my family or not knowing if I'll return to work, to feeling like I'm the only person who is adhering to these fucking Coronavirus rules, my household getting on my nerves for a variety of reasons (not listening to me, eating/talking too loudly, constantly interrupting me etc).

Then there's the small, stupid things:

Netflix takes more than 2 seconds to load,

the hot tap comes out slightly too hot or not hot enough,

my book is too thin or too thick to hold it comfortably,

my hair is too long or too short and it does my head in,

I am either too motivated but I don't have the time to get everything I need to get done done, or I have no motivation at all.

Most of those things contradict each other, and all of them are fucking stupid. There's so many more things and they're all just as stupid as each other, but they just make me so angry, and the more I realise how fucking dumb they are, the more angry I get.

The more angry I get, the closer I feel to giving up.

I just want to scream so fucking loud!!!