trigger warning: abuse

Abuse of any kind fucks you up.

It destroys you and breaks you. You're never the same again.

It fucking sucks because you react differently and people tell you your stupid or dumb or annoying or fucked up because of the way you react. But you can't help it.

You spend so much time being scared about what people are going to do or say to you, of where the next abuse will come from and when.

You're scared to open up to people and trust them because the people before them weren't so nice and used your openness and trust against you.

You feel like everything is your fault and put up with the abuse because you think you deserve it - because they force you to believe that you deserve it!!

It's fucking disgusting and wrong.

But we can't help the way we behave because of it.